There you go again, saying you love me

But in the same breathe, you then insult me

So I try to understand you, love you

Want to get inside your head, and find you

Shame I can`t unravel what`s in your mind

All I find is confusion of a kind

I know you mean well, but you say it wrong

Sad to think it will be the end before long

What could of been so wonderfully bright

Has ended up sad, as we only fight

Just wanted someone to see out my years

Fell for you, but that was wrong it appears

I must move on, so I`ll leave you a kiss

Sorry if I`ve upset you with all this...

 

 

 

I read a sad story and this poem came from its sadness.

 

 

© Lis Bull 2013

 



My special room

There`s a room at the end of the hall
It`s a special place I go to hide
All my secrets are treasured in there
My old life is locked away inside

All hidden from inquisitive eyes
Allowing me somewhere to retreat
Time for me to think and remember
A place for me and my past to meet

I visit and lock the door behind me
Feeling safe between these four walls
Then I sit and contemplate my life
Feeling good, knowing the future calls


Thinking and remembering my past, never wanting to forget,  this special room is in my
mind and I love to visit it when I can as it is comforting.

© Lis Bull 2013

Let me be free

 

 

That`s it, had enough

All fired up with rage

Cooped up, trapped in here

Locked inside this cage

 

Huddled in the dark

No comfort is found

No time to feel loved

Only that I`m bound

You locked me in here
Threw away the key
So claustrophobic
I need to be free

I have to break out
I know that for sure
Get away from here
Need freedom once more

I beg you to please
Release me from here
So let me run free
Without any fear.


A strong passionate and fiery poem. Feel better now it`s written!!

© Lis Bull 2013

All I ask is...........Why?


Mulling over things
Wondering why it happens
What did I do wrong?
Maybe this was my fault
You don`t phone any more
Never get a visit either
I find out you don`t want to
You`re never in to answer the phone
No return calls are received
Excuses made when plans are changed
Why don`t you just be honest
You are a shamed of me
You don`t want to know me
Please...just tell me...why!



It`s so sad when you find out someone so close doesn't want to know you.
All I can say is, that it is sad as, they are the real losers, they lose out on knowing us,
It still hurts though.

© Lis Bull 2013

Six years on.....

Life is hard, but harder without you
The battle is always raging around me
I feel lonely without you by my side
So incomplete as a family

You lost your battle and was taken
The Angels came and carried you away
But we are left to carry on our lives
Until then please help us not to stray

Separated, we find ourselves struggling
Together we were united and strong
Guide us through this sad remembrance
And remain with us our whole life long.

So on this day we remember you Steve
As a wonderful husband and dad
All the memories we made together
For you were the best thing we ever had.

Rest now with the angels
Love and miss you always

Six years ago my husband Steve died,  each year I write a poem for him.  

This is this years poem and I  wanted to share it with you.

© Lis Bull 2013

  

Because I can........!


I love to splash through the puddles when it rains
Or sitting cross legged making daisy chains
Why?.........because I can

So enjoy running through fields of wild flowers
Or sitting by a babbling stream for hours
I do it.........because I can

Racing up the street pretending to be Batman
Or talking long distance through string on a tin can
Yes I do......because I can

But what I love to do when no one else can see
Is snuggling up in bed with my teddy
Because..... I know I can!


I was laid in bed thinking of the things we use to do as kids,  then I thought,  can I do that? 
The answer was...yes, Why? ....because I can !  Why can`t adult have fun?

© Lis Bull 2013

The Olive Tree

Sat here watching the world go by
Sipping my cup of tea slowly
Cars and lorries driving on past
Shoppers bustling along quickly

A bus pauses at the junction
Faces peering through the window
Some happy at the prospect of fun
Others glum but why I do not know

A blast of the sun bring a smile to all
And kids laugh as they run along
A bright red sports car roars by
Roof down, music blaring, what a song!

Just love to sit in my own world
Protected in my bubble here
No body knows I`m watching them
Able to hide, yet be so near!


A well earned moment of peace from the chaos at home.
The Olive Tree is a wonderful Café I love to escape too.

© Lis Bull 2013

Where`s my Internet?

I know we`re really lucky people
having internet, TV and mobiles
but we take it all for granted
when all is working, there are smiles

so when my system goes down
I worry, friends will be neglected
so find myself in such a panic
as I`m unable to be connected

rebooting, searching for my server
trying to get a connection found
I`m trawling through all the cables
not comfortable, sat here on the ground

the screen flickers and comes to life
maybe this time it will work for me
fingers crossed as I Google a site
yippee !  I can browse again happily !!




Our internet went down for a few days, a long with the television too.  Wow  it made such a difference to entertainment. I read a book instead.  How ever it is interesting how much it affects us when we lose it for a while.

© Lis Bull 2013

Found on hydrawise.com 

That coffee moment!



The sweet aroma of coffee

Gentle music in the background

Filling your senses with peace

A place of tranquillity

Restful for the soul

Sipping on your hot drink

The cares of the world slip away

Mesmerised by the atmosphere

Relaxing, chillaxing

Melting slowly into sheer bliss

Escaping from the hassle of a busy stressful day,
a cup of coffee does the trick !!

© Lis Bull 2013



Silence, tranquillity

Reverence, humility

Beauty is everywhere

For us all to share

Colours and textures

Fragrances and pictures

Red, green and yellow

Family, food and meadow

Blue, purple and cream

Frogs by the stream

Children`s activity

Ball games and poetry

The sun of our faces

As we rest in these places

Laughter and smiles are sighted

As families are united

So everyone give a cheer

Memories are made here

The sun has got his hat on...... its warm and sunny and families are out enjoying themselves. Kids running around and picnics are spread.... this is a great time to be together

 

© Lis Bull 2013