Crossroads
It`s great feeling to write and post my poems on my blog, to express my inner emotions and set me free. It helps me to cope with life after becoming a widow. Well that was the main reason I started my journey, then as I travelled I became aware of influences, such as helping others going through the same as I had been going through. I started to talk to people and found it gave me a new purpose in life. Steve was still with me in spirit and I felt he was helping to move forward.
I started to write more and express the grief I was still feeling and this helped me to travel eve further along my journey with a feeling of worth. It was 10 years ago I had my first poem published "Colours of Bereavement" A poems of grief through colours, from blacks and dark blues through to creams and white and seeing I was a different person who was strong and determined.
Sixteen years on, my sons have moved out and are doing well with their lives and I find myself with more time on my own. I still want to write poetry and help others, but feel there is something else but, not too sure what that is. It`s like a piece of my life is missing!
I am at a crossroads, should I continue on the road I`ve been travelling on so far or should I try a new road full of new adventures? Suffering with anxiety, I am unsure and a little nervous to be honest. So this calls for some research and a lot of thought. Change is difficult for a lot of people, taking small steps can help.
So for now I am going to explore my options, consider how I move forward and then, only then, will I be able to decide. Until then, I`m working on a book of poetry inspired by a photographer living in Orkney. ( maybe this is a possible road for me to check out too.
Take care and don`t forget to do what makes your heart happy
Lissie x
If you could chose a colour to inspire your day, what would it be?
