A Slow Death...

Am I such a bad person who thinks only for myself

don't I care for them each and every day

my family mean everything  to me

but it feels that they want to shove me away

I cry myself to sleep most nights

awake to the solitude of silence at dawn

praying that no bad news will come my way

sadly happiness is something I still mourn

why oh why do I continue to live this way

all of this is slowly eatting away at me soul

when will this pain stop attacking my heart

but I sadly fear I'll never again feel whole!

(c) Lissie Bull 2019