Life after loss.

Grief can destroy you
or focus you
you can decide life was all or nothing
if it ended in death
maybe every moment had a meaning
that you dared to recognize
so much meaning
that it even scared you

therefore, you just lived
from year to year
taking for granted
the love
and laughter
of each day
you didn't allow
yourself to consider
the sheer sacredness
of existence!

but when it's over
the total loneliness
hits you hard
as you begin to see
it was more that a movie
or washing up dishes together
more that sharing dinner or
worrying about the bills

the answer to the mystery
of our existence
is the love we shared
some times imperfect
and when we awake after the loss
we see the deeper beauty
the sanctity of it
we feel grateful for life itself!!

© Lissie Bull 2014